Goal #2

Goal #1 is in the process of being accomplished--opened savings account today.

Goal #2- Figure out the best way to finish out school so I can be teaching in a classroom ASAP. I work as a one-on-one instructional assistant, and I have found that I do better working with various children, not focusing on one all day. With more than one, they are (usually) not all misbehaving at the same time, and can balance each other out. With working with just one, if they have a bad day, you have a bad day. I take things so personally, and when he is not behaving well, I feel like I've failed. I really love kids, but am working hard to convince myself that I still want to be a teacher. I just have to rest in the promises that God has planted in my heart about my calling, and what gifts he has given me.

Until then, I will just have to look at pictures of this adorable niece I've got--and remember all the blessings he has given me.














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Life Goal #1

Well, I guess it's really a goal of the moment. Goal #1- Save money. I am notoriously bad at saving money. I really idolize my sister in this--she shops for groceries for the week all on $40. I spent $40 on one Nashville sweatshirt at the airport on Sunday. It makes me sick. It should make you sick, too. I feel like I don't use the resources that God entrusts me with like I should. There is so much that needs saving up for--a new car (I got in mine in the 85 degree weather today and remembered that the AC on my car doesn't work anymore. neither does the rear window defroster.), as well as enough money so that I will be able to make it through a semester of student teaching with no income. This will also entail coming up with a weekly budget once I figure out how much I will be able to save. Did I mention that I am bad with money? Ugh. I'm really glad God loves me no matter how much of a screw up I can be.

This weekend I went to visit my sister (VanderbiltWife--go read her blog!) and saw my niece get dedicated. She is undoubtedly the most beautiful baby I've ever seen. But I'm way biased.

Discontentment

A lot lately, I've been feeling discontent with all areas of my life. As a Christian single in a married church world, it can be so frustrating! I feel that the Lord has promised me that I will be married some day, but he's teaching me a lot about waiting in the interim. Lord, I don't want to wait anymore! So I've been sulking. I've drifted far away from him--more in the sense that I have no motivation to read the Bible, and sermons just bounce around in my head...not that I am trying to sin more, or turning my back on Him. I still pray--do you ever just feel like you're crying out in frustration instead of looking for His direction? In my time of struggle, I've looked for a blog or page that can help, so I don't feel like I am all alone out here in my 24-year-old singleness and frustration at God--but still loving him with all of my heart and deep underneath, really wanting His will for my life, because I know it's what's best. I haven't found what I was looking for, so I really want to try to be transparent, so maybe I can eventually inspire other 20-somethings who long for God's best.
Do you want to take this journey with me? It may be long, and full of complaints, but full of blessing. I know that if I try to follow him, he will bless me. Let me know you're out there, reader...as I think aloud.